My new sounds: Reason 6.0 and Record to sample my drum sounds (Propellerhead)

My new sounds: Using Reason 6.0 from Propellerhead

It’s been a fantastic journey making “Both Ways” these past couple of years, and I’m very proud of my work. I’m looking forward to all of you rockstars hearing and enjoying it.

My songwriting has been focused on this specific project — building a bridge between the gay, bisexual, and lesbian communities. I’ve bared all in my lyrics, many of the songs completely true.

But now I find myself completely stuck. I picked up a guitar today for the first time in…well…a long friggin’ time. I couldn’t play. No chords came out; no melodies found themselves. I wrote a bit, but I couldn’t stand what came out. I hated it, actually.

I’m lost without the focus behind “Both Ways”. But perhaps I was hiding behind that focus. I didn’t allow myself to write outside of that *box*. Now I’m left to write, well, whatever the f*&k I want. I don’t know if the songwriter in me is ready to do that just yet. I also don’t know if she knows how to play live instruments anymore. I bought a tambourine and a shaker, along with Record for Reason Users (bad analog/digital combo). I absolutely LOVE Record/Reason. But it’s a strange affair between live mics and patterns on Dr. Rex.

I need time. I need space. But the *real* stuff running through my head needs lyrics…needs rhyme…needs rhythm. This is like eating frozen oysters — you just swallow them whole, trying not to taste them or feel the texture as they slide down your throat. ”Both Ways” is done. But I’m not.

xoxo Suse.

Cheers rockstars. I had a long chat with my engineer Andre yesterday while we recorded more tracks for the electronic version of “I’m in luv w/ur gf”.

I’m really coming to terms with my decision to be the behind the scenes type of musician. I felt so at home in a vocal booth for 3 hours, really working and pushing myself for some great takes.

I’m reading this (maybe silly to you) book called The Happiness Project.

http://www.amazon.com/Happiness-Project-Morning-Aristotle-Generally/dp/006158326X/ref=sr_1_1?s=books&ie=UTF8&qid=1311090400&sr=1-1

It’s reminding me that people change, and the 6 year old me who wanted to be a performer like Madonna, with all the theatrics etc, has to shut up for awhile. The 32 year old me wants this life.

And I’m just fine with that.

xoxo